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The best piece of advice I’ve ever received came from one of my worst mistakes

What’s the best piece of advice you’ve ever received?

“Stop saying you’re sorry for something you did not do. Do not take personal responsibility for something that has nothing to do with you or your actions. We say ‘I’m sorry,’ as a reflex response, a sentence filler, to a lot of situations that we did not create. It’s a passive response, a guilt giver. Remove it from your vernacular. Only say you’re sorry as a direct result of your own actions.”

Autumn · Fall · Forests · I love trees · Nature · Oak trees · Trees · Uncategorized · Willow oak trees

William, the Majestic Oak

There’s something about me you should know: I love trees. I believe the science that states trees communicate with each other through lengthy and entwined root systems deep underground, as well as through their branches and leaf canopies. Dying trees are fed sugar through their roots from other trees that know of their suffering. The forest is friendship and family.

But William, the towering Willow Oak adjacent to my home, does not live in a forest. Perhaps he started out in one, a hundred years ago, when he was a sapling – and before that, an acorn. But there’s no way to prove it.

As he is now, overseer of my home and its relatively small parcel of land, William has a few local friends. None are larger than he, but they are seemingly not intimated.

Oak trees are formidable, and they live long lives. William is an example of this – and yes, that’s his name, we have conferred. He asked for my name, of course. “It’s Amy,” I said.

Given his proximity to my dining room, health and sturdiness are important factors to know about William. “Great tree.” “Over one hundred years old. I’d love a tree like that on my property.” “Perfectly healthy.” Several tree specialists have said these exact words about my William. I imagine Wills puffing up and shaking his leaves in a show of bravado, but his leaves are eighty feet up and I can’t see what he’s doing with them.

And yes, I’ve decided William is a male. I’ve heard trees can be either/or, and William gives towering male protective vibes. He is over one hundred years old, after all. He’s a galant gentleman.

His trunk must measure fifteen to twenty feet in diameter (see photo above for William compared to the size of my foot). His visible root system grows just touching my house’s foundation – but before you become nervous about that, it just touches. The roots follow the line of the home in a parallel fashion, abutting, but never crossing. His well-established, strong roots running along the foundation of my home appears to be giving it a gentle but Herculean hug. He offers roots for when I feel rootless and ungrounded.

His rough bark reminds me that he is rough on the outside, but alive and doing important tree stuff on the inside. His green leaves of spring are a canopy of hope external (remembering that hope springs eternal), his brown leaves of fall are a yearly consternation to my home’s gutters, and are my shoes’ main nemesis. My welcome mat ignores the leaves completely, unfortunately. His acorns drop from up high, clanking the glass patio table. The acorns are large this year, which my mother always predicted meant a cold, snowy winter. We shall see. The squirrels have already begun to bury the acorns, and, if they remember the locations of burial, they will be well fed this winter.

When the invasive pest English Ivy threatened William’s trunk, I cut it away, furious. When it grew back and multiplied, I had it professionally removed. William seems pleased. He can show off his trunk again.

“It would take two hundred mile per hour winds to take down that tree,” a landscaper recently told me, staring up at William in awe. (He was the person who freed William of the ivy.) Fingers and limbs crossed that never happens. William is well-protected by my home in a sort of symbiotic relationship.

I woke this morning to see William in his usual place, with the sound of acorns dropping now and again. He seems peaceful and ready to get on with the cooler fall weather. He’s already preparing for spring. After visiting William, my mind and then my feet trailed to my front yard, where my surprise Eastern Redbud grows. Her name is Clementine, and she has a magnificent story to tell.

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daily prompt · Writing

Why I don’t Consider Myself a Leader

Do you see yourself as a leader?

Because I’m typically an outlier. An observer of people and everything around me. I’m not a follower either, because my stubborn streak doesn’t allow me to follow blindly without questioning first. I’m more of a thinker, a student of human nature and nature, and all its forms. If it makes sense to follow, I will. If it makes sense to be a leader in a given moment, I’ll do that. But inherently, I’m an observer. I try to reproduce with photography or the written word what I see, and how what I see makes me feel.

Love · poems · Writing

I Dreamt of Him

A writer needs a muse, and I had a good one. Sometimes I think the inherent non-fictionality of life interrupts the ability to create fiction – at least for me. Life can be overwhelming, amazing, tragic, sacred, wholly unexpected. I feel life’s events deeply and I always have. So I have looked to my old writings for inspiration, and perhaps to remind myself that there was a time when I created things worth reading, that other people enjoyed reading, that I was someone who created ideas, found peace in words, and hope in imagination.

I found one poem in particular that is not fiction, coincidentally, but about a dream I had several years ago. The poem still resonates with me, and I want to share it here. I am a thinker, a dreamer, a moody sarcastic reluctant romantic. I am a writer. I am me. I can be no other.

* * *

Last night I dreamt of him

He was the house I longed to get to

in the middle of shallow, red clay-tinged, gently rippling water

Gray and tan smooth pebbles and jagged tiny stones surrounding it

Standing solidly on a shallow pier that I couldn’t reach

He was the brown shingled home

with a simple frame and construction

cozy and inviting

but surrounded by that shallow clay-colored water on all sides

I circled like an agitated, frightened puppy

whimpering to myself

Standing

alone

exposed

frustrated

bewildered

on some solid ground I could not see

Placing my bare, dirty, cold wet feet on the hard rocks and pebbles

but jerking them back just as quickly

when the rocks shifted

Afraid to step forward but determined not to step away altogether

I got no closer

Fear rose up inside of me as I circled the house

I longed for someone to help me

but the house was empty

As I fought the wave of frustration and panic

a wooden walkway appeared

It was not there before

A simple walkway that led to the front door

and bypassed the rocks and water

I quietly exclaimed relief and pulled my feet from the rocks one last time

I made my way on the walkway

cautiously but quickly

I kept my focus on the wood planks beneath my feet

I saw that there was one simple step up to the door from my walkway

I kept my eye on that step

When I reached that step

my downcast, anxious eyes

stared at my dirty, cold feet

Just as I was about to step up

an open-palmed hand

attached to an outstretched arm

appeared before me

I raised my head

reached for the hand

forgetting my fear

and the dream was over

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